March

 March

I saw her walking down the street,passing the flower shop where i work,she was wearing a white violet dress which made her look like a fairy,i wonder am i allowed to love her?can i dream for her to love me?so what can i do,i guess i will be me and at least try,maybe maybe something nice will happen to me

i tried today to speak with her when she passed the shop again but my feet would not move,i could only see her but i am still happy i saw her today,i will try again tommorow something maybe will change.

and i tried again and again to speak to her but something stopped me,-am i afraid that she will reject me and i will not be able to see her anymore?

today we had a special sale on shop we were told to give flowers to girls and madams which were passing our shop,the best thing our shop manager thought if i can say that ,because,because i talked with her,was magic,she seemed a person you could talk to so i will i will surely this time try to ask her to date me, but how should i brake the ice, i know since our shop will have this promotion until 8th i will speak with her through flower and i will ask her on last day if she wants to date me

first day : i gave her today Lilac today my first time laying feeling (Purple First emotions of love)

second day : i gave her daisies pure white like her(Daisy Innocence)

third day : she was spectacular today so i gave her Orchid (A Belle, Beauty,Luxury, Fragrance)

forth day : gave her today geranium she was so beautifull today (Geranium Gentility, Esteem)

five day : she got all the flower until now so today Jasmine(I am to happy)

sixth day : i have her today tulips ,giving tips(Declaration of Love hope will not became yellow one)

seventh day :today was iris day (Iris :I Have a Message for You)

eight day : today last day i gave her red roses(love)and a letter,she looked at me a bit then tooked the letter

i wonder what will she think,i wonder if she also knows that i gave those flowers for her in that order like a way of telling my feeling,but will it suffice just to write things and give flowers?can i hope something in which i did my best but not tried to overcame my worldly fears,well i will wait for her answer who know what will happen

i can't stop crying ,i feel my heart being stabbed by a milion needles, i...do not understand...i wi...

some time has passed since i last wrote here,i was a fool then,i am today also but i am not alone anymore because of this

you gave my world color

opened my closed eyes

made me feel alive

no darkness anymore

a snowdrop surfacing

spring is coming

winter is no more

be happy world i camed

i will speak now

i wont hide anymore

because i love you

from when i saw you

your blue sky eyes

your golden hair

your fairy feeling

your imperfection

i see you as my half

the part separated

and you are one

me the other one

i cant belive it even know ,if you dont express your feeling infront of someone with your words also beside your actions you will lose,maybe the world and now from 1st march to 8th march i will always no matter what give my fairy and to my litle angel,at least until she grows up,flowers each day because they worth it.i am happy.

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