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Friday, April 21, 2023

March

 March

I saw her walking down the street,passing the flower shop where i work,she was wearing a white violet dress which made her look like a fairy,i wonder am i allowed to love her?can i dream for her to love me?so what can i do,i guess i will be me and at least try,maybe maybe something nice will happen to me

i tried today to speak with her when she passed the shop again but my feet would not move,i could only see her but i am still happy i saw her today,i will try again tommorow something maybe will change.

and i tried again and again to speak to her but something stopped me,-am i afraid that she will reject me and i will not be able to see her anymore?

today we had a special sale on shop we were told to give flowers to girls and madams which were passing our shop,the best thing our shop manager thought if i can say that ,because,because i talked with her,was magic,she seemed a person you could talk to so i will i will surely this time try to ask her to date me, but how should i brake the ice, i know since our shop will have this promotion until 8th i will speak with her through flower and i will ask her on last day if she wants to date me

first day : i gave her today Lilac today my first time laying feeling (Purple First emotions of love)

second day : i gave her daisies pure white like her(Daisy Innocence)

third day : she was spectacular today so i gave her Orchid (A Belle, Beauty,Luxury, Fragrance)

forth day : gave her today geranium she was so beautifull today (Geranium Gentility, Esteem)

five day : she got all the flower until now so today Jasmine(I am to happy)

sixth day : i have her today tulips ,giving tips(Declaration of Love hope will not became yellow one)

seventh day :today was iris day (Iris :I Have a Message for You)

eight day : today last day i gave her red roses(love)and a letter,she looked at me a bit then tooked the letter

i wonder what will she think,i wonder if she also knows that i gave those flowers for her in that order like a way of telling my feeling,but will it suffice just to write things and give flowers?can i hope something in which i did my best but not tried to overcame my worldly fears,well i will wait for her answer who know what will happen

i can't stop crying ,i feel my heart being stabbed by a milion needles, i...do not understand...i wi...

some time has passed since i last wrote here,i was a fool then,i am today also but i am not alone anymore because of this

you gave my world color

opened my closed eyes

made me feel alive

no darkness anymore

a snowdrop surfacing

spring is coming

winter is no more

be happy world i camed

i will speak now

i wont hide anymore

because i love you

from when i saw you

your blue sky eyes

your golden hair

your fairy feeling

your imperfection

i see you as my half

the part separated

and you are one

me the other one

i cant belive it even know ,if you dont express your feeling infront of someone with your words also beside your actions you will lose,maybe the world and now from 1st march to 8th march i will always no matter what give my fairy and to my litle angel,at least until she grows up,flowers each day because they worth it.i am happy.




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Scary story test

 It was a rainy day, the drops were hitting the dirty glass,the wind was making the tree sing in a creepy lonely mood , alone , seeing nothing ,being cold and feeling some eyes stick in your back ,getting goosebumps, Ion was passing through the woods after going on the funeral of his wife , Andreea ,he was down in front of his relatives ,but after leaving and getting further and further away a smile crept on his face and his eyes were glowing.

”-Finally over ,hahahah, over ,you witch ,you are 3 feet under now you cannot annoy me anymore me !Witch !hahahaha" strange thoughts of Ion.

He got home looking sad, but with his happy eyes ,he ate and sat down on couch watching tv ,he looked exhausted but feel good, like he did something

great or something was lifted of his shoulders ,or at least he thought that.(dark smile)

The rain was still hitting his window ,lighting and thunder were making that night a loud day ,around 3 he wake up swearing:

”-Leave witch I buried you ,you are buried leave ,you are dead I am alive!,hahah leave…lea…"Ion stopped swearing and turn to the window where he saw a being floating there with wet hair dripping ,a frozen smile with perfect white teeths, but a pair of blood freezing eyes, red with dark pupils that were staring at him ,Ion was at first floor where he had his bedroom.

“-Ion ,where are you? Came open the window !Don’t you love me anymore? “

Ion was looking at that apparition and was stuck ,he could not move or say anything and he fainted .He woke up in the morning near the window with his hands clenched on the lock. Ion was confused

”-What happened? why am I here? Must be from all the exhaustion from yesterday .He left and washed up ,ate a bit and went town to the bank to check the money he still had ,he wanted to move from that village to a town where he had a sweetheart.

”-Hi Ion! how are you mate? Sorry to hear about Andreea didn’t think that would happen ,was sudden! "said Marius while giving Ion a hug ,they were best friends for years.

”-Thank you Marius! Is hard but what can I do ?I loved her so much and now she is gone !said Ion while putting a sad face.

“-Just live on Ion just live on I know is what Andreea wanted for you to live on and be happy!”

Ion met with more friends that day and all were expressing their condolences ,after a while he arrived at bank also and withdraw the saving he and Andreea had. The sun was setting and Ion was thinking to go home but he thought :“-No one is home now so I can stay as long as I want in town ,without anyone nagging anymore!” so he went to a bar and drank until he got sick and was asked to leave since they were closing .Ion was heading home but something felt strange ,he was feeling pierced by someone’s eyes looking at him but he didn’t hear any steps and he walked faster hoping to escape that feeling but as he was getting closer to home he kept feeling his skin crawl

”-Ion….ioooon,iiiiiooooonn!”something was whispering in his ears he turned right didn’t see a thing ,he turned left didn’t see a thing

”- I need some sleep that booze was bad, what the hell do they put in that expensive shit ,making one hear things, but while he was swearing an idea popped up…”-Is there anyone behind me?” Ion started to turn while sweat was dripping slowly ,the he saw it something was there looking him in the eyes, Ion couldn’t see what it was or who it was ….but he thought is nothing I must be seeing thing

”-Fuck off who the fuck are you? Scaring me like this fuck you! then he turned and left. He arrived home ,closed the door and went to sleep he was too drunk to do something else ,but again he woke up in the middle of the night feeling cold and this time hearing some knock, he opened his drowsy eyes and check the room nothing then he moved his eyes to the window where a silhouette was waving to him ,Ion forced wake up and looked at the window again but now didn’t see a thing so he walked to the window to pull the curtains but while he was pulling it he saw something near his yard ,he didn’t knew what it was but was giving an eerie feeling also a familiar feeling ,he ignored it and went back to sleep.

Days past one by one, months past one by one this was the day when Andreea’s alms was happening ,Ion was busy with all the things he needed to do ,his relatives and andreea’s also helped so all went smooth. After that Ion needed to leave few days to the city to talk about accommodation in the city and meet with his lover there.

After few days Ion got home in the village and while checking the yard and area around house. Ion was getting ready to sell the house ,he saw a pool of a black sticky thing under the window of his bedroom ,was a very unpleasant smell like something rooted there ,he went to get something to take that out of there not to scare potential buyers ,in the same day after he cleaned the area he showed to house to some potential buyers and was left to get a call if there will be a deal about the house.

”-Last day in this house ,the house where I lived with that witch ,curse you in your grave witch ,may you get to hell and burn for eternity there!”

For all Andreea’s and Ion’s marriage was a dream like one ,both lovers holding the world together ,was talk about a kid soon but all was a short dream ,especially for Ion but no one knew what happened and they still don’t know what happened with Andreea suddently dying after few months of marriage, no one knew how Ion was abusing Andreea and how much Andreea suffered, well until death maybe there she had peace. Ion was having a grudge againt Andreea, he was jealous hearing people talking only about Andreea this, Andreea that so he acted inhuman ,but that’s not quite right cause Ion was human and his idea of good or bad was different from others on certain things, so doing bad in others eyes but good in your eyes.

Night fell and ion was going to sleep, after some hours of sleep Ion wake up and went to drink a glass of water but when he came back to bedroom he felt that the room was a freezer and in the room was someone ,he watched the presence in that room and seemed to find similarities with Andreea, but Andreea was dead

“-Who are you? Leave! Leave!”

“-You don’t love me anymore ?”,said the presence,”-Or you don’t remember me anymore Ion ?,the presence was moving towards Ion while shaking and a black liquid was dripping from it wetting the floor.

Ion somehow found the strength to move and ran to the door wanting to leave but then he felt his hair raising and scalp numbing the presence was near him ,it stretched its hand and touched Ion’s face blood was dripping from his face ,drip drip drip, only the sound of his blood dripping was there…

”-Ion I still love you!!Why did you leave me alone?I came to get you back!” Ion heard that but didn’t see any lips moving of that presence ,the mouth was toothless and with a rotten smell ,drip drip drip, the cut was getting bigger and bigger,Ion was feeling like in a frozen pond ,he couldn’t move only saw the presence smelled the presence ,felt his live leaving away.

“-Lets go Ion !Lets be together as you said yes till death do us apart ,now forever even in death !”

After few days at Andreea’s grave there Ioana, Andreeas best friend found the dirt there moved and scared she called the priest and the police ,when police digged to see if Andreea’s remains were still there .They found Ion there with his broken and with blood hand prints on the ankles and his hands full of earth broken with his nails pulled and red eyeballs frozen in scare. Ioana fainted and few other weak of heart .No one knew how Ion got there and why he looked like there .After a while after investigation it was found they ion was dragged from his house pulled by legs his nails found in the ground on the trail left from his house to Andreea’s grave and on his bedroom windows 2 bloody hand prints that matched Andreeas, no one knows how that got there, also in the house in a hidden drawer the police found a notebook Andreea’s kept in secret where it was written the nightmare she lived and on the last row written in blood when in the same day when Ion died ,after verification. :

“Death will not keep us apart”

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Feel box

    Let’s say that all started with an innocent idea of peace, a way to keep all your feelings storaged somewhere hidden from any covetuous eyes of bad people, good people and most of all friends and family, this is a story that can change people in a way or another, is about the life of a kid named Lisk.

The story that started behind a tree:

"-Sssst….keep your mouth shut Diena, i don’t want them to hear us !! I don’t want to lose you also ,I want you to be close to me , I need you beside me Diena!( Diena was his sister, his younger sister), said Lisk while holding a black box in his hand.

-Yes Lisk , I will keep quite !

  Their aunt was looking for the two of them, after the cruel accident in which his father died ,aunt Crura remained their only life relative, because their mother died of a rare disease named leda, a disease in which you lose eye sight in first week and slowly your mind and you won’t remember anyone you ever knew (that is the worst way a child can lose his mother ,to see it fading before his eyes without being able to do something in that way ) tears from the innocent eyes of children are so hard to handle for anyone ,their father was devastated , the light of his eyes, as he called all the time Sara, his wife, was disappearing and he was tied on his hand without being able to help her, and the tears of Lisk and Diena cut in his soul like cold wind in the winter. After the death of their mother Lisk and Diena wanted to forget , to not remember her anymore and not to feel the pain in their chest, In that way their father helped although he probably never thought will be so important in the future for Lisk:

-Lisk, I know this is hard for you ,but I am here for you for anything you need !(he said trying to hide his tears from Lisk )

-I want to stop feeling pain,I want mommy back !and started to cry

-Take this Lisk,is a dal!

-A dal?

-Yes,is a magic box in which you can put all that you want to forget,to erase,to keep hidden from all you want!

-Can I put my feelings there?

-You can put anything you want there cause is a magic box.

Since that day Lisk the black box he got from his father became very important,Lisk started to hide all his feelings there,his pain, his fear and his love,the black box was his way to go over all hard situations without being hurt or ever to feel pain,at least is what he thought .

-Good they left,let’s go!! while trying to go he stopped Diena was down crying

-Where will we go?i am scared I don’t want to run anymore,aunt Crura was always good with us, I want to be safe,I don’t want to be alone anymore.

-You want to stay with aunt?

-Yes.

-Alright then if this is what you really want I will get you there!

-Thank you!

-I know is hard for you , I want all that is good for you but for me now aunt is not the best solution, but you know if anytime you will need me I will be there for anything you need.

They left and arrived at their aunt house and Diena remain there ,as the years past Diena became a beautifull ,smart pediatrician, she loved kids, but as good as Diena life was the life of Lisk was hard mostly because he made it that way,he met a nice girl that loved him with all her heart and was able to do anything for him,just for a kiss but Lisk didn’t care all he felt was kept in the black box, his anger cause he lost the company of his sister, his sadness cause his parents are dead and more important that all of this he kept in the black box his true feelings for Egao.All the occasion he had to tell her the truth were wasted and he slowly lost her,or at least is what he thought,so he didn’t had any reason to smile.Egao found a boy that she liked and with which she wanted to marry, fortunately she didn’t do that even that all her friends and family recommended ,for all of them she had just one reasos as she said with light in her eyes"-I am not in love with him, I love someone else and I will wait until he will realize that and then I will marry!"Lisk’s black box has became from a shield a weapon with which he hurt people, he realized that in the sweetest way possible when in an act of despair he said to Egao he hate’s her ,Egao came close to him looked him in the eyes and said to him:

-If you hate me kill me, she said while giving Lisk a knife, because I love you with all my being and I can’t support to live without you in my life, do it at least I will die in peace!

-What? Lisk became all red and started to tremble while he felt Egao’s sweet sent and the warm of her body,no I won’t do that ,never

-Hold me in your arms and kiss me! Egao said while getting close to him and hugging him,the knife fell down without either of them knowing.

-No , I ….Lisk stopped and heard the beating in love heart of Egao and all his feeling came back to life, all the pain and sad feeling, his mother and father death, the fact he left Diena with his aunt ,but all the feeling were so small comparing to what he was feeling for Egao, he put his arms around her and kissed her, in that moment nothing matter ,all he felt was love and he tending for ,two hearts together, one wonderful feeling.

Well the black box finally disappeared ,Lisk destroyed it and throw it in the fire

-Why did you throw the box?

-Egao,the box was just way to hide,but hiding my feeling I forgot how to live!”

Lisk went together with Egao to Deina and told her all that happend since he left her with their aunt,Deina was happy to see Lisk again and that he was not alone and really started to live his life.

Well a story,real story that is happening right now because we all have something to hide and we hide feelings,facts and most of all we try to hide our self,but in the final the black box we all carry will brake and then the true story of our life will start,good or bad